The highly anticipated interview of the Duke and Duchess of Sussex with Oprah Winfrey aired on Sunday night and the couple revealed it all.
A jaw dropping moment saw Meghan reveal that at one point she contemplated suicide and was discouraged from seeking help by a palace official.
“I didn’t want to live anymore,” said Meghan in a heartbreaking moment during the interview.
Meghan said she would spent sleepless nights Googling on how to act like a royal because she didn’t want to be an embarrassment to them but her efforts were never noticed at all.
“There was no guidance. There were certain things you couldn’t do, but (unlike the movies) there was no class on how to speak, how to cross legs, how to be royal.
“That was me Googling late at night… we were doing the training behind the scenes because I wanted to make them proud.”
She went to several senior palace officials to receive help for her suicidal thoughts or to be checked into a hospital, but she was told it wouldn’t be good for optics.
After being discouraged from seeking help, Meghan says she then reached out to one of Princess Diana’s best friends, but the suicidal thoughts could not go away and that was the breaking point for her.
“That was a very clear and real and frightening thought. I couldn’t be left alone,” she said as she explained the suicidal thoughts.
Meghan said her life in the palace was an example of why people should be kind, since you never know what people are going through ‘behind closed doors.’
Prince Harry also dropped another bomb on the royals saying his father and his brother are trapped in the palace.
Harry said he felt compassion for his father and brother because they can’t leave the palace and they are ‘trapped.’
“They don’t get to leave,” he said adding he has ‘huge compassion for that.”
He adds that he was trapped too and didn’t see a way out until he met Megan.
In light of that Harry said his relationship with his father, Charles has still not been repaired and Charles has stopped taking his calls.
“I had three conversations with my grandmother, and two conversations with my father before he stopped taking my calls. And he said, ‘can you out this all in writing?
“By that point I took matters into my own hands, it was like, I needed to do this for my family. This is not a surprise to anybody.
“It’s really sad that it’s got to this point, but I’ve got to do something for my mental health, my wife’s and for Archie’s as well.”